Have
you ever wanted to be famous? Well I am. In some ways I consider myself none
other than Hannah Montana, living the best of both worlds.
It
was only three months ago that I, Ashley Dykstra was nothing more than a
struggling teenager, living off my $11.75 an hour pay from In-N-Out, moving
house to house, and pretending to hang out with all those friends I didn’t
really have. I got bored with my life,
so in August 2010 I packed up my belongings and moved to Jishou China , to be an
English teacher. Before I knew it, I went from being invisible to being swarmed
by thousands of my number one fans. It was now October and a huge week for Yasi Middle
School , where I was teaching my 1,100
rambunctious students. It was the week of our Art Festival. Colorful banners,
cheerful music, and excited children surrounded me. The kids were hard at work,
practicing for the big performances they were forced to be part of as part of
their grade.
My co-worker and I
were nervous. If you are ever a foreigner in China you will quickly learn that
they love foreigners, and any chance they get they will make you do something
for them. Within the first two months of
living there I had sung on national TV in their version of American Idol, and I
had been all over the internet for a Tae Kwon Do advertisement. So of course we
saw it coming when they asked my room mate/co-worker Tessa and I to perform in
the Art Festival. We got to pick what we were
going to perform, and how long it would be, as
long as it was approved by the head master first. The only thing I felt even
remotely comfortable doing was what I was best at, rapping. I wrote a rap about
Tessa and I being foreign English teachers at Yasi, and we practiced until the
second we got on stage.
I walked into that
auditorium full of confidence and swagger. Suddenly I saw the 3,000 plus students,
teachers, and parents filling the stands all the way up to the nose bleeds.
Every ounce of me about jumped out of my skin and ran out that front door. As
the acts went by and it got closer and closer to performing my knees got weak
and all I could do was sit. My students somehow found me in my hidden corner,
made their presence known, and wished me good luck. Each kid who said hi to me
just made me that much more nervous, they would think I was a fool if I messed
up. My heart was racing as I walked to the side of the stage, waiting to go on
next. I wondered if everyone could see my heart beating through my shirt. My
stomach was in knots as I glared at my paper, reading and re-reading my lines.
At this point anyone who talked to me just got the death stare. The only way I
could pull this off was if I stayed in the zone, shutting out the entire world.
I wondered if I could wrap myself in the long, dark purple, velvet curtains and
hide until our act was over.
It was go time, I
took the microphone in my shaking left hand then right foot forward I ran out
on stage. “Yo, yo, yo, this one goes out to you Yasi!” I yelled as I ran out,
throwing my arms in the air. Blinded by the florescent lights, all I could hear
was screaming and kids chanting my name. As my eyes adjusted, I wished they
hadn’t. I saw the row of principles, head masters, and counselors sitting front
and center waiting to judge our act. The thousands of kids were on their feet,
roaring for us to start, my stomach was turning and I feared I would vomit if I
opened my mouth.
As
I started rapping I was shocked at how well it was going. I found myself
starting to sway my body from left to right, using my hands, and releasing the robotic
tone in my voice. The kids continued to go wild, running up to the stage,
throwing their arms up, and screaming. Astounded I did a double take, looking
around to make sure it was really me these kids loved, or if somehow Jackie
Chan or Justin Bieber were standing behind me. The crowd started singing along, the judges
had smiles, and soon people couldn’t help but dance along. The nerves were far
in my past, for now, I was thriving off the fame. My rap was coming to an end,
I tried to stall, I wanted to remain living in the spotlight. My two minutes of
fame were now over, yet the applause and chants remained. If they knew the
English word for encore, they would
have been shouting it. I threw my arms up one last time and gave my fans the
peace sign, then giddily ran off stage.
I
didn’t even have a second to collect my thoughts, or control the excitement
that was growing with every heart beat, before my students swarmed me. Hugs,
high fives, and congratulations were all around. They wanted autographs on
their arms, heads, and clothes. A grin from ear to ear was pinned on my face. I
was ready to free style Eminem. The camera flashes were so bright and frequent
that I could have gotten a tan. People I had never seen before took the time to
not only talk to me, but worship me. The confidence turned into cockiness, I
held my arms out, my hands motioning for them to stop, “Please people, no more
pictures.” I felt like I was on top of the world. As I walked back to my seat I
noticed chairs were empty; and it dawned on me that I was the reason. All those
kids were following my every move, which was a little awkward as I walked
towards the bathroom and explained that I needed a minute.
This insane four
hour festival was now over and I was nothing short of exhausted. I never knew
how draining it was to be popular and famous. On my bus ride home I thought of
all the smiling faces I saw on my kids tonight. It made me so happy to know
that they really cared for me and loved me no matter what. With my head leaning
up against the cold window, I silently laughed to myself. I bet not even one
third of those students understood me. How cool am I? These kids don’t have a
single clue what I’m saying, or that I was even rapping about them, yet they
still chased after me like a kid chases bubbles. The following days, I was
talked about by my students and peers. I was curious how long my fame would
really last, but as my girl Hannah says, “Life’s what you make it, so let’s
make it rock.”
Loved it, Ashley! I was revitted to my seat through the whole read! Keep them coning!
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